I think today is better. No more tension, but it’s strictly business at the moment. It’s kind of gloomy out though. I hope the sun comes out later this afternoon, and Spring hurries up and shines its way through.
So, there was a lot of tension in the mail room yesterday with my co-worker and I. It didn’t bother me so much, because I got my work done, and she continued to be a complaining lazy witch. I was really happy though, because I didn’t have to deal with any bad confrontations or anything. Just the typical Monday of dealing with a lot mail. Right now I am just tired.
So, Friday was a God awful day, because my co-worker and I went at it. I hated it. I was steaming mad, and even after I walked away she continued yelling saying some things I just rather forget. I gave her the cold shoulder the rest of that morning. I didn’t care she had questions for me, and I didn’t care for her hospitality. She lost all my respect after swearing and telling me to shut up when I didn’t do any of those things. Yes, I was in the wrong just as much as her, and I did yell. I did scream, but I did NOT swear or tell her to shut up. She told our boss what happened, and I actually thought about what this whole situation was really about. Yes, I wanted to tell my boss my side as quickly as possible, but the four delay of me not telling actually gave me some time to think about it.
I did think about it. Whatever I wrote on my past blogs about her is what I was thinking about. Why do we get into arguments? Is she taking advantage of me? Why didn’t I just ignore her? Why do I push myself to her level? I wasn’t even thinking about what we were arguing about at all. I just wanted to figure out why we fight. One minute she’s nice to me and the next she’s making accusations, interrupting me, and never lets me finish my sentences. I came to the conclusion that yes I am gullible and I allow people to take advantage of me, yes I shouldn’t retaliate back, yes I stood up for myself but inappropriately, yes I think she’s two-faced, and….no I don’t think I will ever talk to her outside of work related matter. It showed this morning. I said Good Morning, and that was that. I didn’t want to talk to her, and she showed no interest talking to me.
I noticed all she told our boss is what we were arguing over (she has a loud mouth). She didn’t once bring up the actual problem at hand. I am glad I had time to cool off, and think about this whole thing. Yeah, I did bring up what we were arguing about at the end, but that wasn’t even my main concern. I told my boss that I want to keep it strictly business between us two. I don’t want to socialize with her outside of work related matters, or have a conversation that involves anything outside of work related matters. This is perfectly ok, and there’s nothing in the handbook that says we MUST socialize about non-work related matters. This way there will be no fighting, and we can just stay away from each other.
She was ok with all this. Thank God, because she couldn’t say no anyways. I think this is a better relationship for the time being, and I don’t know if it’ll improve. All I know is when she graduates college and starts her career she’s leaving this job. I am anxiously waiting for that day. I don’t even know if I myself will be here that long. I am hoping to find another job in a year, so I don’t have to deal with these people. She’s not the only one that I couldn’t stand, but she was the longest. She’s the only one I have problem with as of now. In the past it was just one, but as the job progressed over the months, people’s true side starts to show. Myself included, but I still continue to take this job seriously, and I just hope things get better.
Just bought my LP tickets to the Carnivores show in Tampa, FL. I hope to see a lot of friendly faces there! Also, it’s Friday! Let’s all have a good one and enjoy the weekend!
Since my last concert was the BMTH w/ OMAM An American Dream Tour, I get to go to the LP/30STMS/AFI showing on August 9th in Tampa, FL. I hope to meet many of y’all there! I am not applying for meet and greet, because I want to see AFI live. It be such a shame since last year I missed Mutemath and Incubus and the year before that Does it offendd you, yeah? and Pendulum haha. Where are y’all going to see LP at this year?